"For God has not given me the Spirit of fear but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind". - II Timothy 1:7 (KJV)
It wasn't that long ago that I was released from a threat so strong, so crippling, that it had me doubt and sit on my gift for a very long time. A threat so subtle and deceiving that if I didn't face it when I did, it would have taken me out (well my dreams, and my passion that is). That threat was Fear. Yes, the ugly (F)alse (E)vidence (A)ppearing (R)eal. We all face it or have at some point and time it our lives.
Having been an event planner for many years, I was confident in my skill set. It wasn't until I decided to branch out as a stationery designer did my confidence diminish. Yes, I had been designing stationery all along for all of my clients, but not at the forefront and under the radar (quite comfortably) of event planning. So when I no longer had that shield, I was exposed and so was my skill set as a designer. Thoughts of acceptance with my peers, and questions like, "Did have what it takes to bring it to the mat as a designer?"
One of the keys things that I have learned and continue to keep at the forefront is that I have been trusted enough and given a gift, and that I have to trust the source, God, who gave it to me. So with time, self-refection, much prayer, journaling, encouragement, and just stepping out, and trusting in the unknown, I am much further along on my journey. By just doing it, the less fearful I was of facing failure and accepting success. The infographic below best describes it.
Are there any days where I feel fear lurking? Yes, of course I do. But there is such a remarkable difference in I how respond. I have good days, and challenging days. And in those challenging moments, which are far and few, I encourage myself and remember to: